Sleeping in foreign bedrooms That remind me of you I’m getting over this moving on  just taking my time  Because  I fuck everything up And  I let Everyone down And I let Everyone down  I let them down  These expectations are getting harder to think about  I’m swimming above water but I think I might…

2009 

Wanting to feel so much, but falling a little short You think it’s you, think that I need more We haven’t spoke in weeks, but maybe we can be just friends Maybe this rollercoaster doesn’t have to end  Stick around because I’m scared of losing who you are  Scared of missing your touch Miss you…

Everyone is inferior to us

All we do is argue  Nobody’s listening  Not even me, especially not you, I’m impulsive and in my head too much, When I stop thinking about me, I’m left with nothing but disappointment and disgust  I guess I’ll just have to live with it, Hope is a predator that just makes me lie to myself …

So brooding and tortured So why can’t you write a single good line to save your life Say nothing it’s fine, your talent is wavering, And your pedestal is short  You are small  I wish you were a dreamer like me Then maybe every once in awhile you’d think about how we could have had it…

Lying through your teeth, Tired of your stories, I feel nothing.  Realizing all that you deserve of me is nothing, Take advantage, manipulate, lie, Erase your number from my phone, Erase your lies from my life. What a waste of space, what a waste of time.  I hope you find what you’re looking for,  I…

Sunflowers

Her curly hair and scattered freckles teach me not to judge a book by it’s cover. She’s kind, thoughtful, and the life of the party, But I’m so glad I’ll never have to see her look at me how she stares at the table when she’s in her head  We’re playing a game, but she’s…

Stoned, again

I’ll just stare at your words  And think about who you’ve been talking to about your problems, Who you’ve been thinking of at night, who you’ve been singing songs too, Who you’re arguing with about being right. You couldn’t hate me if you tried, Don’t worry I know.  When you let me walk out that…

What do I deserve?

Your nerve? I guess but you should know It’s not about you It never has been It’s just who I am as a person Not afraid to be vulnerable  Not afraid of falling Not afraid that you’ll stop calling  You won’t It’ll eat you up Your insides decaying as you’re reminded how much you’re not…

Pop Punk Sucks

Even “Elevated” brings me down Thinking about that state champs album  Thinking about last Christmas  I wish we could go back to the way things used to be Talking on the phone drunkenly Missing you missing me from across the country  Back when you had feelings for me And I knew it without you ever…

Heartfelt vomit 

There’s a scab on my knee, I’m running late for work  My hair isn’t dry, and my head fucking hurts I sent a text I regret, I feel invisible why does my heart keep committing these crimes There’s four or five new numbers in my phone that I’ll never use Attention is a waste of…

I sleep with the light on

I need to buy a fan  I wish a bandaid would work for this hole in my hand  The missing pieces that would intertwine mine; I’ve been wearing rings, so they’d feel less naked  As if somehow rings would make me feel less empty inside  If only you were an empath like me you’d understand …